I'm Back... To Square One

It's been a month since I've posted anything on this blog. You'll notice that Casually Political, while fun and challenging, has been shelved and transformed into an archived vertical on this website. When I started Casually Political, I had hoped to share my views of an election that was shaping up to be one of the most unprecedented elections in recent history. That worked for a while. But now that it's all over, I find myself questioning my role as the armchair critic. Do my thoughts really matter? More importantly, do I care enough about politics to keep churning out half-baked opinions?

So there goes Casually Political. Back to square one, once again. Maybe one day I'll come back to political commentary. But right now I feel myself being pulled in different directions.

Some days the philosophical side of me wants to emulate the great writers and critics of our time, sit in warmly-lit coffee shops, smoke cigarettes (just kidding) and blast out 2,000-word essays about the dark side of modern liberalism. Other days I switch on the TV and feel myself yearning for my news reporter days when I would run around the city like a madman, covering shootings and fires, caring more about the content of the story than the prose.

Which is better? I don't know. I left TV news because I wanted that first dream. I started Casually Political because I thought I could achieve it. I still think I can achieve it. But, if I were honest with myself, the 2,000-word essays haven't been so easy to churn out. Even the 500-word pieces haven't been so easy to write. Is it because, as a 25-year-old woman, I haven't experienced enough? Is it because, if I were honest with myself, my talents lie solely in TV reporting and nothing else?

In a month I will be traveling across Europe — and, if I feel spontaneous enough, across India. I think it's time for me to explore, both physically and mentally, what else is out there for me. Because I don't think my talents lie only in TV reporting. I am, at the core of it all, a storyteller. That is what I love best. Casually Political, while it achieved certain dreams, did not achieve the ultimate dream. To tell stories. To talk to people. To get outside of my comfort zone and ask uncomfortable questions. 

Will I find a home for that dream during my trip? I hope so. Let's see what happens.